Sad Memories

You guys must be thinking why did i changed the title to friends cannot be trusted

i'll tell u why

remember at my previous post i said my current best friend?

she have let me down just as soon as almost 3 months?

i barely believe that and of course still have t0 face it...

this happened so fast and sudden that i could barely take...

this is what happened...

there was this running test for all

its on the early morning

when i went to find them in the morning

i got help from the rest to locate them

(them refers to my best friend and some other friends)

these other friends, have a girl, or rather the stupid idiot head

she hates me or rather almost every girl in our class

okay...

so when i found them, i called out and they did not reply

at first i thought they didn't hear

so i called out her name again

this time louder and clearer

but she totally just ignore me

why? i don't understand a single thing

why? why she did that to me?

she didn't even bother to answer me even if i asked her some stuff

she don't bother! she don't want to talk to me!

i almost cried but i did not

then i walked with them

trying to convince myself

maybe she is just not in the mood

or she is eating so could not talk

but....

no... my convince isn't right

that was not the reason

i confirmed that she does not want to talk to me

i see no point talking to them

so...

i walked faster

faster and faster

making myself avoiding them

trying not to let them see my tears

i'm crying

i realized as soon as my tears drop

what reason?

what's the reason?

for what she done to me

now... i ....

i....

of course cried for one whole day

one whole day...

no mood to listen class

just want to avoid class

i just feel like go home

that feeling i went through

made me decide on what i want to do...

of course is lot of experience that caused this decision

the decision of....

putting my protective gear/shield

in front of me...

... not to believe in friends anymore...